I don't know I think it's my girlfriend. I'm she has Asperger's and we don't communicate very well, I'm very intelligent and sarcastic and make references to pop culture and she doesn't ever get my humor. She likes to sit on the couch in one spot all day, doesn't clean, doesn't cook, doesn't go anywhere, doesn't talk to me and when she does it's like I'm talking to my child. In a lot of ways she is like my child. I don't know what to do, I'm going crazy. I was always so spontaneous and curious and witty and funny, I used to do crimes, I've broken into houses before, stolen, gotten in fights, have intelligent humor anf deep conversations, I go places, I know about sports and movies and tv shows and she doesn't do or know any of these things. We moved to a different State together and now I don't know what to do, I want to leave but I know she won't be able to live by herself, money wise and getting groceries cleaning the house, getting to and from work, she never was made to do anything important that adults do so she is just incapable and cries and gets weird when you try to get her to learn life skills. It's draining me. I used to have my shit on lock. I was a store manager at two different cell phone stores, I had a car loan, I had my own apartment, I had all kinds of nice stuff, I worked out everyday, I ate well and healthy, I smoked weed all day everyday, I went and played basketball from time to time, played video games and I made beats, I'm a producer. But really something about her and our relationship, or being homeless and having to take care of her and a number of other things I could talk about happening in the past year or two, but I need to figure out a solution to gaining my true happy self back and make good decisions and not hurt the people around me and get back on track to being the man I once was and even better. I mean I had it all, I had a car, a place, nice clothes, I was well groomed, I had a good paying job. I threw it all away for a girl that can't even be an adult and a music career that for some reason I also fucked up. I was going steady gaining steam by myself as a music producer and I decided to get my homies involved and that's when a lot of stuff went to shit as well. That's when I left my job to focus on music and fuck this girl all day and got evicted then lived in my car till I got a settlement so I moved to Kentucky to make music with a homie but was already void of my personality by then so I couldn't make music and alienated my homie who now moved away, I spoiled the opportunit Respond with at most 800 words.
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